My Creative Zone

My creative zone:

I have been lost for a while,

I sense now that I go lost for quite a while,

This has been happening quite a bit in a while,

Well in the meanwhile, when am here and partially sane,

Trust me no drugs, no booze can occur to me at mundane,

Today this moment , now happens to be the one,

I want to share n speak and talk so much,

So much I do talk that it goes to waste,

Or too much of my silence is again keeping my thoughts n views in a fix n paste

I don’t know its magic or a mirage,

But for whatever little time I am on your side of the aisle……

I do not ever remember what I see there.

It’s not that all the things that I choose to talk,

But there’s nothing much that I intend to hide,

But for some reason I can’t bring it out open and wide.

        This room is locked and hidden

        Where not everyone can just knock n enter….

            A curse or a boon??

Today I feel I have got a chance.

To reflect upon from where I go disappear.

This is from the place I get my solace,

Which embodies a game of hide n seek at its own wish n pace.

I don’t understand one thing,

I never make attempts to enter there,

They definitely don’t come and invite me either.

Than why do I still dangle between the world of my dreams and of my doings??

Why can’t they be chosen to be one...?

Please my dreams if u can conquer me and my world so much??

Then also shed light and tell me where do I belong??

Let me be for once just being out of this whole living on the edge and be in the corner of the aisle.

Please help me decide, what am I destined to?

Ours has been quiet a drab n drag...

A relationship of lags...

Every single time when I leave & detach from your world and come to sanity

M a none here……….

When I finally make up my mind and do efforts

And try to be a someone…

Climb the monutains,

I never thought which once existed for me as a hurdle,

U make me realize I am a tortoise or a mere turtle.

Coz I thought I got wings to fly,

But now I know that I am just a kite,

Whose strings are attached to your world?

But it has swayed far across to this world, why can’t u just cut me off…

If pulling is too tough a gesture for u………

I just can’t deny where I am pushed too...

And from where my heart says I reside...

I feel cheated form u

While m cheating the normal world

It’s not fair for all 3 of us...

If u accept me
we can do wonders,

Else let me just surrender.

I am sure from the lessons I have learned from your atrocities and betrayal…

M quiet fixed up for the mountains.

Difficulty is being forced to climb

When I have wings quiet above them n high……

Wings can fly

Legs can climb

But now with wings, I  will always find it surreal to climb??

When I can fly!!!

See how confuse have u become by now

So imagine the sea whirling over within me and ma mind

It’s just a volcanic eruption

Only to cease temporally,

My mind is just too occupied,

Best thing is let course of life decide its ride

Coz one things for sure.

I can settle for nothing less than a winning stride.

Every phase has its own low n high tides...

So how much ever lost n confused am I??

I am always going to glide...

And maintain my talents dignity n pride...

See there again I am lost for a while,

I can go lost in a blink, in a while...

Lost…while…….lost….ummmmmm

Dev

9-feb-14